❤mrJayツ

just got home a few mins ago.

went out to watch de movie, Twilight (:

dam de place was crowed.

i guess its because its weekend ??

so went to another cinema which is near by.

was lucky to get a good sit even though it was a few

mins before de show start !!

bought a white tee after de show

& headed back home.

nites(:

dead is peace while life is painful

Happy 18th Birthday

Agnes Tan Gui Qing xp

for a moment there, when i recall everything
tears still do shed in my eyes &
it still hurt so bad
i can feel de wounds are still so fresh .

shouldijustmoveon ??

btw, i've changed my msn add already

so do add my new account yah !!

if yr wondering

wad is it,

just come & ask me cus i dont bite (:

im off to slp, screw dis piece of shit ..

back to continue my movies (:

really nth much to blog about today though.

thunder, looks like yr doing good le.

seems like things would get back de way it is.

so dun worry too much

life is really painful _!_

gona take a few mins break

cus my eyes hurt from staring de stupid screen for ages !!

been watchin movies the whole afternoon.

well anyways, i'm off to hab my dinner cus kinda hungry though.

continue it later (:

weizhu, my player is back & running yah (:
but if it was not, then i'll have to
sue you for listening too much & without leaving a tag !! =x

enjoy yr dinner at hub wor !

one short post before i take my bath =x
actually, dis post will be about you,

ANG WEI ZHU !!!!!!!!!

looks like u've been listening to my songs on my blog
for over a month le
but u nvr tag me. urgh _!_

will it kill u jus to leave one tag?
ahhas..
nvm la, u can keep it all to yrself !!! =p

feelings dat remain since u've left

wont it be great if i just had that remote from the movie, Click ..

would things be better & different if i could just press rewind

& rewrite every line

to the story of me and you once had.

i wanted you but its not meant to be.

& u said u'll let fate decide on bringin us back together again.

i've tired to get you out of my mind

but i just could not put you in the past.

i'm lost & confused but i hope to hear from you soon

cus im still not over you.

girl it aint easy

when i hear our song, i wish i could turn back the hands of time

to where you & me first met.

cus i wanna stop dat perfect atmosphere dat brough me to life.

Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

When i'm with you

Take my hand

I'd do anything

just afew songs that defines my life.

life is a pain

aunt brought me & my cousin out

to get our Christmas clothings.

its great that i have a few new clothes but im really not

in the mood too just go through this celebration.

i just dont have that christmas spirt that's everyone is having

which i see most in the people.

all i could say is that,

Christmas wont be the same without you !

with all this problems & emotions

i'm facing right now, its enough for me to break down.

& yet why does my small sis have to be

another pain in my life ??

dam, she is 13years old already

but yet, she still acts like a little kid bugging me

all day & all the time !!

why don't you just grow up & behave & think maturely ?

things aren't the way it used to be

too much happiness flows

into tears of fears that aren't able to control.

happiness just sucks big time !!

everyone I've loved had left me

so i guess there is no reason to continue holding on to something we

both aren't sure off & yr

right about that.

life does not go the way we want it to be.

its always against us.

messed up

the reason why i love you

`The smell of your hair

`The taste of your kiss
`The sound of your voice

`The touch of your hand

& more ..

these are some simple things

that i will always miss about you.

you are the best gift that god gave me

but too bad it only lasted for a short while.

there wont be true love without pain.

but u took it all away from me.

to the world u might be one person,

but to me, you are the world.

wad in the world am i sayin ?!?

but i guess dats hw i feel.

URGH,_!_THIS EMOTIONS !!

dreams are shattered

went out in de afternoon to get

some time alone & just forget everything abt life

but looks like i cant even though i've

spend every penny in my wallet buying new

shirts, jeans & belts ..
i've really gt alot of things in my mind but when it comes

to bloggin it all out here ?

i just go blank .....

dam it, im jus cropped !!

wads de use of me changing & im used to it

when someday u'll jus leave me here in de rain.

every since you left,

im drowning from my tears.
maybe its right, its better to leave some

words unsaid.

for a moment, everything was prefect but in a sec,

the whole worlds flips on me & everything was hell ...

i cant live, if leaving is without u

sorry, for breaking all the promises dat i wasn't around to keep
sorry, this time is de last time

i will ever beg you to stay

but yr already on yr way.

filled with sorrow, filled with pain

no one but i am to blame for leaving yr heart in the rain.

Goodbyes are for break ups.

yr words felt like a knife & all i could do

was say goodbye? why didt i say anything else to make you stay.

maybe im jus afraid to hurt u once again.

tear drops rolled down my cheeks but wad can i do?

its a shame but looks like i have to start hating myself.

god this is killing me !!

till we meet again ?

i really dunnoe, im in my lost ! looks like i wont be slpin

good this few days.

if i ask u to stay, will you?

will you?

will you jus hold on to something yr nt sure ??

i wanna hear those unsaid words u left me hanging.

makes me wish dat i was nvr brought into this place !!

there goes my life, it might has well been

shattered !!

since, u've left ..

its time to think again wad made me feel so alive

for oh so long.

with yr love im jus half or my words aren't deceiving

maybe its jus me

why do i hab to break my fcuking heart ?!?

im so alone once again.

hw come everyone is askin me this & that ?

& will do this & will u stop that ?

WTF !!!

why wont u ppl jus leave me alone

im tired of this sickening life !!

shit this world.

would u just take me away ?

LEAVE ME ALONE

You're my key to survival.

dam bored & shag at home.

been chatting with thunder all de way while listening to songs

or either watching movies.

brother was feeling down due to some strange feeling

his having.

well, cheered him up & we talked abt our memorable

days we had together with the group.

really can say, thunder is one of my best brothers sia !

ahhas. oi bitch, i guess when u read this

yr balls will be touched yah ? (:

ohh btw, THANK YOU MOM !!

for my Louis Vultton Wallet :D

so love it.

failure is when you stop trying

Finally got my Breaking Dawn storybook :D

its a first time for me reading & i hope

it will turn out good yah.

instead of going to sch today for my exams, went out with

cousin & her friends.

Met them at max's restaurant & we went to

pizza hut for dinner.

Vita(cousin's friend)was full of craps & he nvr fail to make us laugh.

Went timezone to play awhile before going to

Starbucks for my coffee.

Next was window shopping before getting home.

nites ppl, im off to watch my movies (:

whispers are priceless

got home 40mins ago.

was shock to see min online cus she is at Vietnam.

but currently she was with jolene at a cafe updating & making blog.

speaking of de devil,

thunder came online when min asked me if he was online.

well, four of us chatted for a couple of mins

before de girls headed back to de hotel.

didn't do anything happening today.

beside goin to church in de afternoon.

chilled at Starbucks after dat cus there are no good movies to watch

besides, Quantum Of Solace.

bought a necklace for myself & home after that.

feeling sick

just gt home nt long ago. was bored de whole day
cus i was home alone while my mom took both of my sis to get thier hair done.
so i decided to go out & catch de movie
Quantum Of Solace
nice show, worth watchin if u ask me (:
at de being of de movie, my head was killing me & i guess
im falling sick o.0
headed home after the movie.

Happy 17th Birthday

Brother Lionel (:

Happy Birthday Brother !!

hope u enjoy dis day & yr chalet till friday yah(:

yongjin told me dat he would bring his mc16

go yr chalet sia. i told him nt to

make my toes laugh sia. i would rather wan to see him holding

a fire hose instead xD

i'll show u a sweet dream.

dad was making an invitation card for his work thingy.
helped him out with dis version of mine.
i find it nice though, but im nt sure if he will use it.
i hope its up to standard yah (:

went to sch during lunch time just now & i was obviously
LATE as usual ..
didn't do anything much in sch though. smoked outside
after sch end with a few classmates
& i headed home next.

i'll give u my heart on a string.

morning was nt really a bright one though.

opened my eyes & first thing i saw was my mom & my sis.

wtf !! shes back ? 2months plus without her in de hse was great.

but now, looks like things would be back de way it is.

why do u hab to come back? i was doin fine when yr nt here.

do u noe, dat yr such a pain in de neck?

though we live in de same hse but we dun really talk at all

beside, can u pass me dat or dat ?? LOL

i guess, i'll try my best to change dis life style i hab now.

i would try goin to sch so dat i could graduate fast

& be back to sg soon !!

life is just like a story

its Sunday again !!

went church by myself. headed to the mall next.

went Burger King for my lunch & was lucky to find a sit cus de

place was crowded -_-''

Went to book store to look for Stephenie Meyer 's books collection.

twilight & new moon .

but could not find them. urgh !!

i only found the new series which is called, Breaking Dawn

browse through the book & i really find it damn nice lor !!

gona buy & read all there of them once i find

the other two books .

Chilled at Starbucks before heading home.

looks like im gona iron my clothes later

cus i gt nothing much to do anyways.

words are not enough to show how sorry i am.

though u hab drop de matter & hab forgiven me.

i still cant forgive myself cus ive always hurt u over & over again.

im still really sorry abt it.

i noe it was in de past & i should hab nvr brought it up.

dun always blame yrself for everything cus

i'm partly to blame too .

life without directions.

jus woke up only.

been slpin de whole day without any meals

& damn, im so hungry !!

but looks like only can drink milk & hab a small bite of bread

cus my jaw still hurts abit but i think its gona recover soon le bah.

lookin for some small metal rods to bring to sch later.

dis time, i wan blood for blood !!

ohh well, gona hab my bath soon & leave for sch.

i cant believe i took u as a fren & yet dis is wad u did to me?

dam, u were right under my nose & i did't notice u.

u think, can jus walk out of dis smilin happily ?

i swear, in time i'll get u back u pcb !!

those bitch who u broke my jaw & couple more injuries,

i hab to congrats u guys !!

cus u sent me hospitalise for a few days yah.

for those 5 sissy who took me on, u better
wait for me cus i'm comin back sch to collect wads mine & i'll make sure
u'll pay me double u faggot !!

i dun nid anyone.

I ANNOUNCED THAT,

JAYARNOLDCANO

IS OFFICIALLY DEAD !!

i wont go far away from you

back from church as usual cus its sunday again.

had lunch at mac . finally ive got de chance to watch my first local movie.

My Only ü

its abt a comedy love story & its good.

but yr de one dat i keep thinkin specially when i see Toni G.

i hope de ride does nt stop here.

i could nt slp , i dunnoe why ..

yr words keeps rewindin inside my head.

i really dunnoe wad to do, im at my lost right now.

i need yr lovin hand to come and pick me up?

i've wrote something for you.

yi er san si wu liu qi, kan dao ni xiao qi qi

qi liu wu si san er yi, jayjay jayjay hao ai ni

i wrote yr name in de sky but de wind blew it away.

i wrote yr name in de sea but de waves washed it away.

i wrote yr name in my heart & i hope it will remain there .

HAPPY HALLOWEEN !!

HAPPY BELATED BRITHDAY BROTHER JASON !!

once again, Happy Halloween readers =DD

trick or treat yah (:

happy belated 17th birthday brother jason .. looks like u had a great

day celebrating it with de group ..

damn, i miss u guys !!

little cousin (Jillian)

dam shag

blurish pic

went festival mall ytd to watch my little cousin model (:

theme was wildwildwest !!
after dat, we head on to de cemetery to vist my ahgong wor ..

its been 8years since i last went there . looks like de place is still de same or i guess

cemetery dun change ah =x

anyways, reached home around 9plus & headed to my bed after

my bath cus i was dam tired . did't had any slept

before i went out ..